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Archive for April, 2007


I Kept Thinking of Fargo

If a 90 horsepower wood chipper runs in a wood lot and no one is there to listen, does it make a sound?

chris and joe running the wood chipper

I took this shot on Sunday afternoon, about an hour into the process. The area around the chipper looks good, but before was piled five feet high with brush, all of which is now beautiful wood chips. We all worked for about four hours, feeding the orange beast from the various piles around our two properties. Then the guys broke out their chainsaws to cut up the logs into useful sizes and move them off of the rest of the smaller pieces destined for the hopper. After that we spent a couple of hours dragging more to the staging area for the next time we fire up the beast.

I made a yummy Lentil Soup with Coconut Milk and warm spices that I came across somewhere on the internet and meant to link to, but do you think I can find it this morning? Adrienne picked up lettuce to go with the finely chopped veggies and I assembled a big salad, Tyler peeled and boiled potatoes for potato salad with golden hard-boiled eggs and we grilled marinated chicken breasts on a wood fire. Joe, Adrienne and their friend Zeb came over and we sat out on the back deck and ate, chattered about the school system, safety in this whacked out world we have to send our children out into (they don’t have kids yet, but they’re on the cusp) and then we all fell into that almost awkward, quiet food coma that comes to one after a day of back-breaking work. Even the kids were quiet, so much fresh air and sunshine. Song birds singing their evening chorus while the light drained slowly from the sky.

We cleaned up the dinner mess and made wood lot plans for next weekend. The guys walked around the properties to show Zeb which trees need trimming or have to come down. His brother is a tree guy and is bringing over a crane to take them down for us for a very reasonable price. Like half of what just one tree would cost, and he’s doing ten. Then our friend Doug is going to bring in his bulldozer and deal with the stumps. I hope we can get all of this completed by the end of May so we can get our shed built before summer is over.

The temptation to keep working almost dragged me around the yard to dig a few holes for the Comfrey plants, to put the hoses onto the rolling carts, to get all of the tools put back around the oak tree. But Sundays mean Monday is coming. Lila needed a bath. We all needed showers. And sleep. Glorious sleep.

The family who lives in front of us stayed out into the night, burning the dead vines and branches from last year’s garden and talking.

neighbors at sunset burning their garden off

I liked hearing their voices rising above the crackling of their fire while Lila lay on her back, floating in the warm water, her hair fanned out around her dirt-covered face. She sang her alphabet and her counting by tens song. We all slept like happy farmers.

Oh, Asparagus

What a spectacular weekend. My body is so spent from all of the work accomplished in two days. So spent. I woke up to another bout of IBS which was just another icky Monday—the third one in a row. See a pattern developing? Perhaps I’m just allergic to my job.

Anyway, the weekend! I woke up Saturday morning and realized that I don’t have a clothes line here and need to rectify that situation immediately. I’d love to put in another like the one we had at the old place, heavy-duty steel T-poles with 4 cords to hang on. Sweet! But for time and money I’d settle for a wheel-style between the back door frame and the big oak tree in the side yard. That was the one thing missing from the weekend, bedding flapping on the line.

So I trenched all day Saturday, one foot wide by 6 or 8 inches deep, enough to plant 30 asparagus crowns. I wasn’t able to get the manure, but will mulch with it as the crowns grow.

asparagus crowns waiting to be planted

The Purple Passion went in the bed made by the first round with the chicken tractor, used about half of the space. I wonder how long they’ll take to sprout?

Lila walking between the rows of asparagus

The other two (Jersey Knight and Mary Washington Improved) went in a bed next door on my in-laws property. I hope I’m not making a mistake establishing perennials over there, but I didn’t want to use the whole other bed just for asparagus, that would foil my plans for the perfect spot to plant carrots and have them actually able to grow.

asparagus crown in the trench

Two years. I don’t know if I can wait that long. Do I really have to wait two years?

two rows of asparagus crowns, mulched and ready for rain

Can’t I pick just one or two spears next spring? Please?

Vitamin D and Golden Light So Good for the Spirit

Saturday morning and the sun is streaming in various windows around the house. The heat is off and we slept with a window open last night, a deep, glorious Friday-and-I’m-so-tired-sleep. Yum.

In case I’m unable to make time for real posts over the weekend, here’s the plan…

Chris’ friend brought over his mammoth branch (log) eating mulch machine last night and is leaving it with us for a few weeks. Let the wood lot cleanup begin. When they fired it up and fed it for a half an hour last night, Chris kept reaching for eight-inch wide logs and then whooping like a five year-old flipping the switch on the garbage disposal for the first time. I had to remind him to leave the bigger pieces behind for our firepit. I mean, wouldn’t it be silly to buy wood to burn after all that?

Calling the horse farm to see if they can deliver an emergency load of manure, if not then we’re driving over with a few barrels to shovel it ourselves. Will also stop by the local greenhouse to pick up some amendments and a soil test. I have potatoes and asparagus and raspberries that need to get in the ground post haste!

Mow the lawn. Eesh, it’s long already.

Take Ty and his friend to other friends’ art show at coffee house in Akron and then meet up with their families for dinner. Leaving Lila behind with her daddy. Will be good to have conversations without the constant interruption. Will have to curb my desire for ravioli and garlic bread at Louigi’s, and settle for salad.

Food shop.

I’m not adding anything else to this list. If I squeeze in some laundry and cleaning between other activities, great. If not, oh well. It’s not going anywhere.

Happy Weekend People!

Notes on becoming grounded

good morning

Feeling quiet this morning. Like I want to speak in the softest voice possible and move slowly and with intention. I hope to carry this into the busy day ahead and lean into the soft cushion of my centered self when the world of ringing phones, incoming email and urgent seekers pop their heads into my small, fluorescent work space.

I leaned against the sink for a while and sipped tea, watching the light inch out of the east and thought about the past three days. I have eaten so clean that I’m beginning to feel an echo of health in my body.

Brown Rice
Braised vegetables
Barley, white bean and vegetable soup
Salad
Celery with goat cheese
Oatmeal
Frittata with kale
Rice cake with peanut butter
Almonds
Organic black tea
Detox tea
Water

That’s it. The bloating is down quite a bit. I’ve had headaches, due to detoxing I imagine. My body is feeling less sluggish and I’m looking forward to the weekend starting so I can get outside and move. This weekend we’re clearing out all of the brush in the woods and preparing the site for the barn shed.

Now the sun is glowing orange through the cafe curtains on the french doors, the teenager is heading out for the bus, the toddler is still snoring in bed and I’ve got to take a quick shower before heading out for work. It’s Friday and the next two days belong to me. How about you?

Weave a Blanket of Cold Comfort With Threads of the Past

Dreamed all night of someone who is long, long gone, but not without a trace. I came across some photography of his in a magazine online and my armpits grew damp and sticky as I stared into the dark, weathered eyes of the corn farmer in Mexico (?) who wasn’t looking at me really, but looking at this person from my past who was holding the camera.

Another photo was a closeup of this farmer’s hand wrapped around a dry corn stalk, his fingernails black half moons and the skin on his hands similar in texture and wear to the corn husk. The series were shot in either late afternoon or morning sun and the air, the landscape, the sky, the farmer, his clothes—all set in a monochromatic, dusty, umber pallet. I don’t read Spanish, so have no idea what the story was about really, but the photos told their own story and my imagination ran away with the rest. I should write a novel. Ha!

In my dream I knew that he wanted special fabric to make a larger case for his camera and lenses. I knew he would be at this one store, so I went and I picked out the fabric and waited for him to see me. It was anticlimactic. He gave no answers, only more of the same silly sweetness from the past. So thrilled to see me, but stubborn in his refusal to acknowledge that anything hurtful had taken place, as if seven years had not passed without a word. As if we had just seen each other yesterday.

I think of the cliché seven years it supposedly takes to replace all of the cells of the body, and maybe it makes sense that it’s rising to the surface of my consciousness again after so long. Maybe it’s the great pond of my spirit turning the algae to the top in the spring to burn it all off in the summer furnace.

I can’t get this farmer’s hand out of my mind. I can’t help but wonder how he experienced his photographer.

dirt under his nails

looking into the lens

I wish he could tell me something I don’t already know.