Send up the big love, please
My stepfather, Steve, is having major surgery this morning to repair three aneurisms in his aorta, down by his kidneys and into his legs. All week I stifled the urge to call him and tell him all of the ways he’s been important to me and to who I have become because I didn’t want to frighten him more. I called, but kept it light. The words my grandmother said to my sister when she went to visit my grandfather just before he died–something like you’re making your grandfather feel like you’re saying goodbye! keeps playing in my head. Granted, my grandmother, well…I love her to pieces but she does seem to be missing the part of the brain or consciousness that helps filter the thoughts that pop into ones head, softening the blow.
So that thought stopped me. As did my need to focus on the positive. On a good outcome. Visualization and all that. But truth be told, I’m scared. It’s a very serious situation his body is in, just a couple of months after he offically retired. He’s truly been a father to me in ways my biodad hasn’t been able to be for some reason. Oh, that’s just a whole other blog with its own domain, that topic, www.herunablefather.com. Yeah. Anyway.
So if you’re the praying type, or if you light candles or sing songs or write names in a book, well, I sure would appreciate it and even though he likes to say it’s all bullshit, I think Steve would too.
"Autumn is the eternal corrective. It is ripeness and color and a time of maturity; but it is also breadth, and depth, and distance. What man can stand with autumn on a hilltop and fail to see the span of his world and the meaning of the rolling hills that reach to the far horizon?"
~Hal Borland
March 7th, 2007 at 7:08 am
It is so frightening when someone close has surgery of any kind.
Lots of love and good, healing vibes to Steve and your family.
March 7th, 2007 at 8:59 am
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March 7th, 2007 at 9:12 am
Candles lit and prayers are being said here for that wonderful, good-spirited man. He’s your true father, so loving, devoted and generous in his concern for you! What a blessing and as soon as he comes through this you can tell him everything. We’re sending up the big love, for sure!
March 7th, 2007 at 11:04 am
Whatever you want, you got it. Love and hugs.
March 7th, 2007 at 11:09 am
thinking all sorts of gentle healing blostering things for you all
March 7th, 2007 at 11:10 am
Love love love and prayers to you all!!!
March 7th, 2007 at 1:17 pm
That is pretty major, but definitely surgery on things like this has become so much more routine that his chances of coming through this stronger than ever are pretty good. I send all my good wishes for him to have a smooth surgery and swift recovery!
I’ll be in your shoes in a couple of months when my mom will be having hip replacement surgery.
(It probably shouldn’t have, but the idea of http://www.herunablefather.com made me laugh out loud. Does he ever read your blog, or is that part of the “unable” part?)
March 11th, 2007 at 10:30 pm
I am the praying type. well not really praying, but I believe in energy. I’ve got lots of positive energy for you and yours.