The next incarnation - Day 30
I did renew the domain because I trust that the burnout will smolder for a bit, and that underneath the pile of ash there’s at least one hot little coal just waiting for me to dig it out and lay some pieces of dried grass and small sticks across it and blow.
I love blogging—the immedite nature of it—the small community that’s formed around it. I also think that I have a personality disorder around blogging. I keep forgetting about the writing part, which is the main point after all. I get lost in the ideas of what to blog, of consistency. Should I have a topical blog? Is there room for all of these categories in this one place? In my mind? Have I spread myself so thin that there’s no substance left?
Yes. I think that’s it right there. I’m all spark and vapors here. I’ve lost touch with the flesh.
Well, time to regroup. Time to just write. I think I need to give myself a little analog writing so I started up my Word Notebook again. I’m poking around with some poetry again. I’m trying not to let the writing I do for work use me up. The free time in my life is a much smaller hole, and I need to quit shoving myself into it as if it’s still the same giant cavern it was a year ago. Now that free time has to be doled out like commodity cheese and split-top bread. There’s not a whole lot left for me. I have to embrace that fact and work with the reality. Enjoy the life as it is and be thankful.
"In summer we live out of doors, and have only impulses and feelings, which are all for action, and must wait commonly for the stillness and longer nights of autumn and winter before any thought will subside; we are sensible that behind the rustling leaves, and the stacks of grain, and the bare clusters of the grape, there is the field of a wholly new life, which no man has lived; that even this earth was made for more mysterious and nobler inhabitants than men and women. In the hues of October sunsets, we see the portals to other mansions than those which we occupy."
~Henry David Thoreau
November 30th, 2006 at 7:39 am
hi, i’m glad you did because i just very recently stumbled upon here and found i wanted to linger a while longer. it’s a nice blog that you have, and i’ll be coming back often.
cheers.
November 30th, 2006 at 9:12 am
I like your blog. I haven’t been here in a while I but am glad you are keeping it. Although I feel like it is a bit not fair to you. When we met almost a year ago, I wanted to connect with you so I started visiting your blog. And after a while I felt like we must be friends because I know so much about you. But then I realized you know next to nothing about me! Then I started feeling weird about it, like maybe I am digitally stalking you. But maybe that is the nature of blogs, they are always one sided. Anyway I still think you are cool and would like to get to know you in the real world. But visiting your blog is so much lazier. There are no scheduling issues!
November 30th, 2006 at 9:22 am
Emily! Oh, I’m soo glad you commented! I keep meaning to contact you-invite you over for dinner! This working full-time thing, man. It’s for the birds. I was thinking the same thing, that here you were getting to know me (or at least what I choose to share on my blog) and I wasn’t getting to know anything about you and I SO enjoyed meeting you and SO looked (and still do) forward to getting to know you better.
So Okay! Let’s do it. Let’s figure out a day and time that will work and get together. Enough already.
November 30th, 2006 at 9:23 am
Thanks, Poppycock! I’m glad to see you here.
November 30th, 2006 at 1:43 pm
Regrouping is always good. I honestly don’t think you have to worry about categories. Some people like to keep everything in compartments, seperate blogs for seperate topics, but what I enjoy the most are well rounded blogs. I like to hear about people’s job, their crafts, their passions, their worries, their children, their ups and downs. It’s like reading a memoir before it’s a memoir. It feels like being in the moment with other people.
But the main thing is that you have to feel good about the way you do it. It’s for you more than for other people. But i have to say that from the day I found your blog til now (over six months ago now) I have enjoyed reading it how it comes.
November 30th, 2006 at 9:18 pm
I too just found your blog and I enjoy what you have done so far (added it to bloglines too). Glad to see you posting :).
December 1st, 2006 at 11:58 am
Keep writing whatever strikes your fancy, you. We’ll all still be here reading.
You’re such a good friend.
December 1st, 2006 at 4:41 pm
HI Kelly
I love your blog too. I don’t get here as often as I’d like … two little kids, one great hubby and really must spend more evening time with, and a little craft business to run. Your blog is like a great book I pick up when I can, its always a fab read.
Fancy a little pressie for yourself … I’ve a draw for one of my hand felted corsages on my blog. I haven’t won anything since I was 8 (a porcelain doll which was so delicate it was ‘put up’ and haven’t seen it since!) so I’m really excited for everybody!!!
December 2nd, 2006 at 6:31 pm
When you hinted at not renewing, I did the “Scream” thing, “Noooooooooo!” So glad you’re staying. Don’t think, just write, and we’ll all be here reading every luscious word.
December 4th, 2006 at 2:46 am
I know how you feel and I know exactly what you mean. My posts keep getting shorter and shorter.
The key with you is that you know what feels right and what doesn’t. You’ll find you place here again and the flames will rise with the passion you have. Just give your sparks some breathing room…good for you for getting back to some of the things that feed your soul. Life has it’s seasons, weather the cold, the warmth will return.
December 6th, 2006 at 4:41 pm
I know what you mean. There are plenty of things I feel I just can’t broach on my blog because I’ve nailed myself in this tiny little niche that makes up about 5% of who I am…